Mickey Ds

I started my new job yesterday and let me tell you I was pretty nervous before I went in. I normally get nervous when I start a new job because I have to go through the process of meeting new people again, which I hate (I'm a very antisocial person). So not only was I nervous about being the "new person", I was nervous about not remembering how to do anything.

I worked at McDonalds back in high school. McDonalds was my first job EVER and I worked there for three years (the longest I've EVER held a job) and worked my way up to swing manager before I left. It's also been three years since I worked there.

Well let me tell you, I was nervous for nothing. I'm doing pretty good (there have been things I've had to get use to) and things are coming back as I go. It's just like riding a bike (I wonder if I can do that, it's been years since I've ridden one!!). The store manager was in there tonight and she told me as I walked back that she's been hearing good things about me (I haven't had the privilege of actually working with her yet). I looked at her and had to ask her to repeat herself just be sure...I'm glad that they're talking about me and it's GOOD things!!

I've had fun so far and I'm so glad to be out of the house, but ask me in a month and we'll see how I feel then :)

Light at the End of the Tunnel

You know I've done a lot of thinking about the whole TTC situation and here's what I've come up with. With military health insurance they do not cover ART procedures. They only cover fertility drugs (only for use with natural methods of conceiving) and any testing to figure out cause of infertility. My theory is, there is a chance that even when you go through fertility treatments there is still a chance you end up with no baby in the end. Because of this fact we have decided that instead of spending our money on something that may not work, if we cannot get pregnant with fertility drugs or on our own we are adopting. At least I will know that our efforts will end in with a child that way.

So since I wanted to be a mom by 25, if I'm not pregnant we will start the adoption process if we're not pregnant by the time I turn 25. I thought giving up on IUIs and IVFs would make me sad, but knowing there is eventually light at the end of the tunnel puts me at ease. It makes trying easier because I know if it doesn't work I will have a baby eventually.

My step mom told me when I found out it would be hard to conceive that maybe I was meant to be one of those people who is meant to be a mom to a child that wouldn't otherwise have one. That statement at the time pissed me off, but now I find truth in it, and even better I find comfort in it.

So that is our current plan (I did talk to J about what I thought and he agreed), so we'll see what happens next.

I'm BAAACK

Hey ladies!! I know I have been MIA for a while now, I'm such a bad blogger :) Things have been pretty uneventful here in Florida, lets see if I can get y'all caught back up:

• Having J back has been wonderful. I've already been through my first cycle, which was a bust...the only bad part about it was my LP was only 11 days, but I did ovulate which I was pretty excited about!!
• My friend had her baby while we were there. She is one of the few people that I wasn't jealous when they got pregnant because she has scarring on her ovaries so they told her it would be hard for her to get pregnant. So I couldn't help but be happy when I saw that beautiful baby boy!!
• We had a great time in Texas and Oklahoma. It rained the whole weekend we were in Oklahoma and we had to drug my dog (the gold one) because he's a puss and is scared of thunderstorms. I loved spending time with my niece. She's five months now and I got to feed her and bathe her, which is always fun :)
• I got a job today!! It's only at Mickey Ds, but hey money is money right?? The economy and job market in Jacksonville is CRAP so it was pretty much my only choice.

Well, I think that's about it!! I promise now that things are settled down and back to normal I'll be blogging more!!

He's HOME

So, having him home has been amazing!! The first day he didn't get to come home because he had duty (which meant he had to stay on the ship that night), but I picked him up at 8:30 in the morning yesterday. We spent the whole day together and it was just wonderful. They warned us at our reintegration brief that things may be awkward, but it wasn't at all. And I was so worried about the intimacy part for NOTHING, it was WONDERFULLY AMAZING ;) (giggle, giggle) I attached a picture of their ship and a few pictures of us. I'm SOO HAPPY to have him home though!!

Almost there!!!

It's getting close ladies!!! J will be home in LESS THAN A WEEK!!! It didn't fully hit me until tonight how excited I really am and how much I really did miss him. You know what that means though, time to jump back into BBTs, OPKs, herbal supplements and LOTS of BDing (gotta make up for seven months). It was nice to have a seven month break, but I am definitely ready to jump back on the TTC train. I started taking EPO, Vitex, and baby aspirin. I hope it helps and I figure it couldn't hurt. Oh, and I am now sitting at 200 lbs. It wasn't 10% of my body weight, but it was close and hopefully it helps kick start my ovulation again. Wish me luck and hopefully I won't have to move on to fertility drugs...I've got all my crossables crossed!!

Haylee Pictures

My mom sent me some new pictures of my niece, Haylee today. She's only four months old but she's getting so big!!!

Mom Update

My mom emailed me today and told me that the radiation is shrinking the tumors, but she'll probably have to go through it for a few more months. It's been a slow and steady process, but just keep praying that there will be a light at the end of the tunnel soon...