Jessica

Did I ever tell you about my friend Jessica?? Jessica was my next door neighbor when we lived in Texas and we've become very close...in fact she's probably one of the best friends I have. Well right before J left for his first deployment Jessie told me she was pregnant so her and her fiance were postponing the wedding (they were suppose to get married in November 2008). I was a tad hurt at first but quickly got over it because, well it's my Jessie and I can't stay angry at her for anything. Well, she had her baby on May 6th and we were lucky enough to be in town visiting so we got to see him before we went home. Here's some pictures of Alex (that's his name, Alexander Nicholas, I love it so old school) so we can all share in his cuteness :)



Alex in the hospital



The first day they brought him home



The proud new mom with her baby

I'm Moving On

This morning I was woken up by a text. It was my friend Terra and she tells me that she's pregnant. Her and this guy have been going out for a few months (BUT we've known him for a few years, and I always knew they were meant to be together). Normally I would be pissed if someone told me they were pregnant, but I wasn't...I was happy...First off it was Terra. I could never be mad at anything Terra says and I know she wanted to be a mom (they weren't trying it just happened but we've talked about this in the past). I also think that I'm past the point that I'm jealous of people getting pregnant when I can't. I have left the fate of whether I will naturally have a baby or not in God's hands and I think I can be genuinely happy when listening to other's good news. :) it's such a good feeling to not feel angry and upset

Updates

Okay so I'm not pregnant...I figured as much but I still had my hopes up. I've been cramping for the past three days and it finally came this evening. Oh well off to the next cycle, I think I'm going to temp again just so I know when I ovulate.

I lost my purse on Friday. I went to Walmart to buy my friend's daughter a birthday present and I think that I left it in my cart when i got out to my car. I was on the phone so I was definitely not paying attention to what I was doing. I am such a scatter brain when it comes to my stuff it doesn't surprise me in the least. But stupid me had my social security card in my purse so I have to get ANOTHER new one...grrr. Luckily my military id and debit card were in my car so at least I can still get on base and I still have at least one way to pay for things.

Trying not to get my hopes up

Okay so I REALLY need some help...I have taken some tests lately and I need help decifering them. Okay the first picture is two HPTS and an OPK. The OPK definitely had a visible pink line, but it wasn't a positive in OPK standards. The HPTs look like they have a line to me, but I just can't tell.

I'm only on CD 26, and my signs show that I probably ovulated on either CD 16 or 17 (I didn't temp this cycle. So I'm probably 9 or 10 DPO, so I know it's really early. I tested today thought because my LP is fairly short, it was only 11 days last cycle. So I guess I'm going to test in a few days if AF doesn't come in the next few days. So tell me if I'm imagining the lines on the HPTs...lol I'm sure my brain is starting to form them every where I look!!

***update***

Okay I've been obsessively staring at the actual tests ALL night and I've decided that I have FOUR evap lines. Ugh...but I'm not giving up hope yet because I'm only 9 or 10 DPO. So I'll be testing again in a few days

Getting a cat

The other day I came home from work and there was a cat near our stairs so I called it over to me so I could pet it. It was such a cute cat and it was really skinny so I gave it some of the chicken sandwich I had brought home work. I wanted to bring it home with me, but I knew better.

Okay, side tracking real quick. I have a funny story:

When I was a senior in high school I had this boyfriend in the Air Force. He was a very loving man and he treated me like a princess. I had expressed the fact that I wanted a cat (my dad hates cats and wouldn't let me have one), so one day he found this really cute kitten in the bushes and brought it back to his apartment for me. The cat was adorable and we named her Spazi. We had this cat for a few weeks and then we got RING WORM. My poor boyfriend had 60-70 spots on his body because he let the dang cat sleep with him. We had to rub athlete's foot medication on them (ring worm is the same kind of bacteria) and then my dad heard you can put bleach on the spots and it will kill the bacteria. Well, my family had gone camping and I had one on my upper lip so my dad bleached it. The smell of bleach is gross as it is but when it's right under your nose it's especially awful. We definitely learned our lesson: never bring home a stray animal without getting it checked out first.

So after I interacted with this cat I decided that I wanted to get a cat. I love cats. We had a cat when we lived in Texas, but we had to get rid of her. She would have never made the drive with the dogs and she doesn't do well with change and I just didn't want to put her through that. Thankfully she's with this really sweet old lady now and she's the queen of the house. Anyways, I asked J if we could get a new cat and he said yes!! We agreed that we're going to try to adopt a kitten from the pound. Now normally I would try to get a full grown cat because everyone wants kittens, but we want the cat to grow up with the dogs so it's not terrified of them. So hopefully in July (we need to get caught up on bills before we get another animal) I'll be getting a new kitty!!

My Quirks

When I sit and think about myself I realize I'm a very quirky person. I've decided to write a list of things that make me "special" that people may not realize. So here it is:

1. I have a fear of being in large crowds, especially if I end up being touched by people I don't know. It gives me the willies.
2. I have a hard time leaving the house. I have to be in the right mood to be able to go somewhere. Oftentimes I get anxiety attacks, especially if I'm going somewhere I'm not familiar with. I think that if I don't get help I will eventually become an agoraphobic, but I'm too stubborn to get help.
3. I hate holding babies. It's really funny considering I so desperately want a baby of my own. I'm always scared that I'm going to do something wrong and hurt the baby. Hopefully it will be different when I have my own child.
4. I have given up on the idea of ever having my own child. I believe that God wants me to adopt. J and I decided that we'll adopt in a few years if I don't get pregnant so I'm just riding out the time.
5. I'm a very picky eater, but not because of the way food TASTES. I have a big thing about textures and if it doesn't feel right in my mouth it makes me gag and I can't eat it.
6. When I was younger I wanted to be a chef. I wanted to work a cruise ship so that way I could travel.
   
7. I have a problem talking on the phone with people I don't know. I dread having to call to make doctor's appointments, having to call customer support (I had to do this a lot at Lowe's), and calling for food. I make J call whenever we get food delivered and if he's not home I eat pizza because I can order it off the internet.
8. When I was in high school the psychiatrist I was seeing diagnosed me as bipolar. I personally think he was a little of his rocker. I wonder if he had never met a really moody teenager with clinical depression...
9. I've always wanted to learn how to knit, but I'm too impatient to learn

Haylee

I haven't posted in a while (life is very BORING right now) so I thought I'd post some pictures of Haylee. I love showing off my beautiful niece :) She's going to be six months in a little less than two weeks...crazy how the time flies. Before we know it it's going to be December and she's going to be a year. Enjoy the pictures!!